"I can't seem to find a way to go on, to live another day.  I have not hurt myself for the sake of my husband and children, but my mind will no longer hang on.  You see, my father used to rape me whenever he wanted to.  He said I was his special girl and he loved me so very much.  Because I was so special, I was intended to share a very special place in his life.  First he was satisfied with my touching him, then a few weeks later he began to touch me.  It did not take long before he forced me into oral sex and then he began to rape me.  I was terrified.  My dad told me to keep our secret and if I told anyone God would kill them.  I did not know what to do so I began to have thoughts about killing myself.  I can't take it anymore.  I must die for being such a bad person that my dad found me attractive enough to begin to rape me beginning when I was only 8 years old.  All these years later I find myself disgusting and not worthy of being alive.  Recently my dad died of cancer.  Just before he died he asked me to forgive him and I said I did, but I do not!  I will never forgive him!  I hope he is suffering horrible pain.  Because I feel this way I must go ahead and kill myself, I just wanted to tell someone the truth before I kill myself."